Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Reality

The book I ordered "Knock Yourself Up.." came in over the weekend. Here's how it went down at Borders....


Disclaimer...I did buy two more books, but they were on sale for $5.99 so I forgave myself!

Me: .... handing the books over to the cashier... I also have a book that is on hold for me


Cashier: Ok, what name is it under?


Me: Lisa De La Garza


Cashier: goes looking...comes back empty handed.... Did you get a call that it was here?


Me: Yes, yesterday.


Cashier: Ok, what's the title?


Me: trying to talk in the lowest voice possible without actually whispering "Knock Yourself Up"


Cashier: goes back and finds the book. I'm sorry, they filed it under Garza and I was looking for a book called "Knock Yourself Out" not..(hesitates)....that particular title."

Now, tell me. Could they have made this book cover any louder?! So much for trying to be discreet. However, the author and the women interviewed in the book are not embarrassed by their decisions, they are thrilled, so maybe that's why it's such a vibrant color.

Anyhoo, I started really reading the book last night. And as I was reading the story behind the author's journey, and a little bit about some of the women she interviewed I started crying. Is this really my life? I am lying here, reading about how the author went from insemination from her doctor, to inseminating herself, and back to the doctor and how another woman put it off for a long time because she couldn't let go of her dream of falling in love, getting married then having a baby and that is what I'm dealing with. The death of that particular dream. And I'm sad. It's not fair; this isn't how I wanted to become a mother.


So I had a Pity Party with me, myself and I. I feel better today, and will try and finish the book this weekend because it is an easy read and is pretty funny, while being completely serious and thoughtful.


Stay tuned....

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Snagged

When my roommate, Grace, bought a new leather living room set, we tried to re-train the dogs not to jump up on the sofas. You might remember that Darcy would walk across the back of the old sofa and lay there like he was a cat. Well....I thought the re-training was going well until this afternoon. I was in my office posting some things for sale on Craigslist and realized that the dogs were too quiet. So I got up to check on them and found this.



Yeah. So who is training who here???

Monday, October 22, 2007

Whas up?

My friend in Austin emailed me today to make sure I was doing okay. It's been a while since my last post, and a surprising post at that, so she wasn't sure if I had gone out and adopted myself a baby! I haven't...I just haven't been at my computer long enough to do anything but download football pictures of my nephews.


So let me just catch you up a bit. As I said....no babies have been adopted. The news may have come as a shock to many of you, but seriously I've been thinking about it for years. Lately I've just been doing a little bit of research. I learned that as of earlier this year, single women can no longer adopt from China, adoptions from Guatemala are at risk (for reasons I can understand, but it's not fair to the children and expectant adoptive parents who have contracts in the works that are now in limbo) and on top of the massive paperwork you need for an international adoption (and I'm sure it's the same for adoptions in the US), it's not cheap. And the process takes a while. So, if I want to adopt during the year that I turn 40, I'd have to start the paperwork process now. And I'm still praying about whether that's the road I want to go down or not. It would be cheaper for me to just have my own baby and wouldn't you know it, there's a new book that hit the stands called "Knock Yourself Up"...or something like that, about a single mother who did just that....knocked herself up. I ordered the book and am just waiting for it to come in. The thought of an anonymous donor still isn't attractive to me but, who knows, I might change my preconceived ideas about it once I read this book. My brother-in-law did offer his goods...or rather Christy did...considering he does have beautiful offspring, and he has a wonderful personality and character but that's just too weird. Seriously...we were joking, please don't think we would do that, we're a close family but we're not THAT close!

The twins and Jakob's flag football season is nearing the end, I think they have two games left and they are gunning for the championships. I never knew flag football had championships, and I had to explain what that meant to Ethan, but it's all quite serious. And I'm at every game with my camera trying to get some good action shots. Here are a few....
Ethan (Judson Jr. Rockets are in red, by the way) is starting defense as a safety. I sound like I know what I'm talking about right? A few weeks ago they also started putting Ethan as a starter for offense. The boy is fast if I say so myself.

Jakob started as an offensive lineman and then they switched him to defense. He seems to have more fun because now he can go after the guy with the ball and he darn near got a flag in this game. See that big kid right behind him, #44? That is who was blocking Jakob!! And the kid kept "holding" but Jakob learned to get away from him quickly! Jakob has the best "blowing in the wind hair"...too bad it will be hidden next year when he has to wear a helmet!
Ethan (white shoes), Isaiah and Jakob coming up to the line.
Jakob took one in the face but helped block so that Isaiah (who's getting the ball) could score a touchdown!
Ethan getting one of MANY flags, notice the funky number on his jersey? This was the first game and the jersey's weren't ready so they used masking tape for the numbers! By the end of the game all the numbers were in a big wad!
Ella at the 1st game, looking every part the Cheerleader but hating to be standing in the sun, she boycotted chearleading after about the second game and now happily attends as a fan and sits in the stands under an umbrella with the rest of us!
Isaiah running with perfect form for one of his many touchdowns.

And here are some recent pictures of me and my "boys". I just had my hair blown straight, it never looks this good when I do it so I wanted to capture the moment and the dogs wanted in on the action.